AROUND HERE LATELY

Well hello there....

It’s been a while between blog posts, I needed time to gather my thoughts and to heal, both inside and out. Most of you would completely understand and I thank you for hanging in there and offering all kinds of support. I have gained so much strength through my on line friendly community and the words Thank you just don't seem enough.

These past few months have been a crazy whirl wind around here.

January came hurtling towards us at great speed with a couple of birthdays to celebrate. The biggest being that the baby of our family turned 18.

How does one even begin to comprehend the reality of their youngest child turning eighteen ? I cried rivers of tears leading up to this day. Its true when they say that the days are long but the years are short. I am still trying to wrap my head around how quickly we got to this point already. All four of my sons grown up and needing me less and less. This statement may not be completely true, I know that to some point we all still  need our parents no matter how grown up we are, it just feels this way for me right now I guess.

Not only did January mean that my baby boy was now indeed a man, it also bought with it the news that he had been accepted into University, and not any University but one that would take him to Brisbane. It was time for this kid of mine to begin his life's journey....

I am not going to lie. My head and my heart were a jumble of emotions. So proud that he had got into the University and course of his choice, but heartbroken that it was to take him so far away from home. Today as I hit publish on this post he is attending his very first day of University, the start of working his way through three years of study that will ultimately see him become an Advertising Photographer.

January was also the month that we picked up our new car.

February was needed to try and relax a bit before my husband returned to work after almost four months off since our accident. That has also been a huge adjustment, but as each day passes and we start to get back to normal life, we realise more and more how blessed we are to still be here.

A QUICK UPDATE

We still have many scans and appointments to attend for our son 

but thankfully he is beginning to heal and Doctors are

very pleased with his progress so far.

As parents, this has been one of the hardest times of our lives.

But we are so blessed with how his healing has gone. He is a strong young man

and if he can get through what he has over the past few months

we know that he can overcome anything that life throws at him.

I am recovering more each day physically, 

its been a long hard road, but with each passing day

I getting stronger.

Emotionally it is going to be a long precess

but I am determined to overcome this awful accident no matter what it takes.

My husband is doing well.

He may not have had as much physical things to overcome

but emotionally he was struck down too which is to be expected.

He has been such a rock for me 

and without him I wouldn't be where I am today.

Linking up with Denyse for #LIFETHISWEEK

An End OF An Era

Pause Rewind Stop

It’s only the second day of this brand new year and I’m already taking a step back in time. Back to November when unfortunate circumstances made me miss one of the most important days of my youngest sons life.

On November 17th 2017 my baby boy graduated grade twelve, the last of our boys to do so.

I should have been there, I should have been standing with the other parents sharing this momentous occasion. My son deserved my presence, he should have been able to see me in the crowd knowing that I was supporting him and sending him all my love. He deserved to be able to look in my eyes and see just how proud I am of him. We should have been able to share this time in his life together, but some random man on a country road took this away from us. He stole this precious moment, one we can never get back.

Anyway
In the weeks leading up to his graduation, I would often stop to take a moment and think back over the years and how fast this day had approached. Sometimes it left me shaking from the sheer power of what this day would mean.....

There are no more school days for our family. There would be no more morning rush doing the school run in my pj’s, no more lunch boxes to pack and no more mid morning calls asking me to bring them forgotten homework.
This was the day that my job as a school mum came to an end. My baby Ben is all grown up now, he has left school behind him and is about to enter the next stage of his life while I will be left behind watching from the sidelines praying that he will still call me and say....

“ I need you mum”

Ben,
You bring so much joy to our family. From the second you were born you completed us.
Your smile brightens every room, your laughter contagious.
I am ever so proud of the young man you have become, the future is yours, go out and make your mark on the world.
I am so very sorry that I missed your graduation, it’s something that I will regret for the rest of my days. Please know that not once on that day did you leave my thoughts or my heart. You mean the absolute world to me, you make everyday worth living.
As you head off to university next month, know that no matter how far apart we are you can always count on me to be there for you. I’m just a phone call away.
I will always love you my possum. Good luck on your next adventure.

beck xx

Farewell 2017 Hello 2018

Are you like me and happy to start fresh with a brand new year ?
Are you ready to bid a fond farewell to 2017, and make 2018 your best year yet ?

ME TOO !

Last year started off pretty well with not much to complain about. Generally  2017 continued to be a pretty awesome year. As a family we were living well, loving fiercely and pretty happy with how our year was progressing. And for the most part our family was doing A OKAY.

That was until October when our lives took a disastrous turn. A trauma that rocked us to our very core .....
(But more about that at a later date when I feel ready to share)

This year I’m not making any “resolutions”, I’m just going to follow the path that life decides to lead me. Hopefully it takes me along a path of happiness, wellness and adventure, but who really knows what lies ahead ? These past few months have shown me that nobody ever knows where life will lead them, that in the blink of eye everything can change, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.
So with that in mind I’m going to make sure that I enjoy the little things that life has to offer, I’m going to take that walk and make time in my day to visit my favourite beach. To spend more quality time with my family, but also take the time to enjoy solitude, to centre my being and find an inner peace that will hopefully stop me getting so frazzled over the little things. Because after all there is nothing at all wrong with improving ourselves and the way we live this life we are gifted.

Are you making any New Year resolutions ?
Or are you just going to go with the flow this year ?
Whatever you have decided to do, I hope that 2018 is kind to you and yours, and brings nothing but love and happiness your way.

beck xx

Linking up this first post of 2018 with Denyse for #LifeThisWeek