I'm freakin excited that I have turned 40. I never dreamed that I could possibly feel this way, after all when I turned 30 I thought that life as I knew it was over.
Thank goodness I was wrong !
For the past 48 hours, every time I whispered to myself "I'm 40" I've felt like an excited teenager full of wild expectations.
I hope that's not wrong ..........
For the past 10 years. I've spent countless hours wishing I was thinner, prettier, smarter, a better person in general. I've put myself down, torn myself up, and cried rivers thinking that I had lost the best parts of myself. I forgot that I to was/am important.
After 21 years of trying and sometimes failing to be the best mother and wife that I could possibly be. I'm realising that it's time to give myself a little more priority along with my family. To nourish my being and stop being a negative nelly.
I am a wife, I am a mother, I am a daughter, I am a sister, I am a friend and I am fabulous !!!
I hope ............
Last night after falling into bed exhausted and deliriously happy, I realised that yes I may be over weight, I'll never be beautiful, and although the past eighteen months have been an emotional roller coaster, I no longer want to waste anymore precious time. I am going to wash away any of these left over feelings of anxiety and hopelessness.
It's time to be the me that has been in hiding, to throw all caution to the wind and be the best fabulous me possible.
I am excited to see what the next decade of life has in store for me. I am determined to make this the best adventure in my life so far.
Linking up with Essentially Jess for another fabulous week of IBOT